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A dream preceding a hangover…

                       

Something to do with sleep deprivation. Something to do with radioactive liquids consumed on a night that unshakably lingers. A haze of absurd beverages induce tremble upon tremble. Mexican potions labeled with 4 syllable names; purely designed to intimidate ones liver in a manipulative manner. 

My feet are what move me. My body is on autopilot. Hissing automatic doors introduce me to a stuffy crawlspace of an attic bedroom, naked of a roof; a place to house all the abstractions. I look to the sky. It is clouded by people: executives floating to work in suits… kids soaring too high, backpacks dangling by a strap. Suddenly my geographical coordination is seduced by a distorted reality; overshadowed by contempt, and a fun house I once endured as a child. Roads kaleidoscopically framed, the sky: a sharp mirage of a rotating pavement - optically defining the fundamental laws of nature.

Flashbacks of being in Sydney’s worst gig venue take up residency in my unconscious state of departure: a concrete box with prison acoustics and glassy dance-pop thudding the floor. My neck is aching from an unwelcome shiver of tension and longing. I revisit the rippled shade of the sidewalks, which are in severe disrepair, as everyone in this city glacially flies.

I avoid fellow terrestrial travelers, who inevitably seek to combine their misery with mine. They are now ballpoint doodles of stick figure men - intricate and subtle. The path is dim – is flawed, unreal and lonely—but veined with a sunlight sifted down through soft, weightless limbs….

Jan 5

Zine Time #2



It’s no secret that most coming-of-age-moments are, for the most part, profoundly hideous and immature in hindsight. If you can pinpoint the moment where you suddenly emerged from a pube-sprouting, cartoon moron trying to fit in – to a coolsie bean, high enough on the social Richter-scale to invent your own hip language – it’s instantly flabbergasted into thin air with unforgettable memories of classmates perpetually regarding you with mortified pity and judgemental sneers. This was generally due to your financially distressed parents buying you discounted Converse knock-offs from K-mart.

7th grade was a truly traumatic time. Everybody around me was becoming universally adept at manipulating combinations of fingers, mouths and genitals. As a pre-pubescent, burgeoning spring chicken, I felt distinctly left out. The ol’ bird and bee’ metaphor had turned into an erotic visual of unguarded, involuntary arousal for most. For me: it coerced my genitals to spontaneously curl up and die.

The closest sexual encounter I’d had at that time was with a 
 frozen desert that had sexual connotations. My friend Amy decided it would be educationally beneficial to conduct a paddle pop tutorial on French Kissing. I still remember the ever-so-wise words, “As the paddle pop enters your mouth, swirl your tongue around like a tornado.”  It pains me to envision that scenario: a gangly kid with orthodontic braces, molesting the tip of a paddle pop behind the canteen - whilst being dictated by an equally disproportionate gangly kid, sporting red hair and an excessive amount of hippie beads. We were more embarrassing than Ellen DeGeneres on a methamphetamine binge.

When the opportunity came around to ditch the paddle pop for a set of lips, I jumped unflinchingly into saliva-genocide action. Corey O’Donnell wanted to, in the most mature essence of words, get with me. He had passed me a note in English class. The note read one Hemmingway-inspired sentence that didn’t beat around the bush, “I want to get with you.” I had cootie-induced nerves and pulsating sweat glands emanating from my potentially sinful body. I had to deal with it. It was a simple function of time and I wasn’t going to let my nerves piss away my attempt to overcome biological inevitability. I reassured myself with pop culture references that not all 13 year olds who sinfully kiss would die helpless and alone in a puddle of their own wee. Sometimes they live happily ever after, like Dawson and Joey.

The minute the bell rang, all I could think about was the tornado tongue technique that Amy had taught me, and masterfully putting it into play. I had this sudden boost of confidence. It was almost as if somebody had just injected several litres of
Fluoxetine into my blood stream. I was about to crack my first Pepsi and Corey O’Donnell was thy chosen one.

The anticipatory stare before the kiss was much like an episode of 90’s sitcom, The Wonder Years: certified awkwardness, minimal geographical co-ordinates of oneself and birds suddenly appearing.  The kiss was very much the same. Only lubricated and lengthy, with some inappropriate bodily sounds orchestrating the scene. I remember walking away with an extended stride in my step, a banana split smile and a whole-lotta-womanly-tude.


Dec 8

Zine Time




Thomas Jay Burke was 11 years old with startling green eyes and a head of hair, that looked as though it had been drawn on by an autistic child. What can I say? Sporadic curls and undisciplined dreadlocks had me falling into a pulsating heap back then. I thought he was pretty happening in a far out way.

However, my heart was homeless and I was faced with the anti-romance of the post-apocalyptic Achilles heel. In other words - my existence was obsolete in those startling green eyes. I was an awkward looking child, with buckteeth that could open a beer bottle. I thought I was cutting edge and totally working it in my hyper colour t-shirt and Oakley aviator sunglasses. Fact: I was not.

I had a faint idea of how to survive the bacteria-filled wading pool of pre-pubescent love; I had to take the self-contrasting plunge and tell Thomas that I thought he was the most magnificent creature to insufflate oxygen on planet Earth. I had to tell him that he induced impure thoughts upon me and that I began disregarding all logic in the name of thy Lord. Ultimately, there was one diabolical issue standing in harm’s way: being in the same
pericutaneous space as this genetically blessed being would send my nervous system into overdrive, causing me to break out in hives, or worse, impulsive urination.

After reciting countless and recycled b-grade romance movies, I discovered a communication loophole. I was going to write my eternal soul mate an anonymous love letter, with a conclusive ‘guess who’ description of myself on the back. This was my anesthetised entry into the neon cauldron of the lovesick. Behold, I was the lovechild of Hugh Grant and Julia Roberts. I was also the mother of intolerable self-destruction. If only I were momentarily aware of it.

The love letter turned out to be a blushingly honest proposal for requited love, of stark and aching aural perfection. I quoted numerous Savage Garden lyrics, and included a poem, rhyming my potential counterpart’s name with words like “stupendous” and “tremendous.” It was heart-on-sleeve-agony at its finest.

The day had finally come to deliver the letter to Thomas. I had decided on the cowardly act of placing it in his school bag, which was situated conveniently outside of the classroom. I was not aware of it at the time, but my arch nemesis and alert bomb-sniffing dog, Megan Taylor, saw me place the immortalising love letter in Thomas’s bag. 

The next thing I know, Megan Taylor is reading my letter out loud to the entire class of year 5. I thus began experiencing a painful twinge in my forearm, as my pulse quickened from the undiluted panic and rage I was undergoing. There was an orchestra of composed frequencies of laughter propagating in the classroom. I was instantaneously paralysed, firmly groping my skirt until my palms ached.

One mortified dash to the public toilets and a knotted skirt later, I was slightly more in control. Although, in hindsight, the fact that I dramatically exited the classroom in a heated sweat, before Megan even had the opportunity to reveal my identity, was possibly a mistake.

From that day forth, students thought it would be psychologically beneficial to cast me out like a leper. A sinful, hormonally charged leper.

I guess if Sigmund
Freud were to read my letter, he would most likely psychoanalyse me as an 11-year-old girl possessed by a sex devil. Wild and sexually haunted.

Party on, Garth



There is something privately and intrinsically attractive about having an arrested adolescence. Amid the contours of breathing air in a society
that does not permit culture unless it is conforming to very narrow moral parameters, you take the self-contrasting plunge and disregard judgmental sneers from those whom are inherently inundated with undiluted panic and rage fuelled by the sinister act of colouring outside of the lines.

You wear t-shirts with ironic slogans, climb inanimate objects with the absence of inhibition, get an elaborate hairstyle, partake in a flash mob, do the worm on the dance floor, watch recycled Simpsons episodes and peruse the toy section in k-mart – because you’re subconsciously certain the green goo in that plastic Play-Doh-inspired container will bring subsequent joy to your afternoon.

You’re eternally pubescent and answerable to nothing. That’s the dream, anyway.


Submerged

 


Your fate is unstitched. A wave of bliss settles over your mind, until the future happens, apologetically, again. The year slowly drags on, then speeds up, then repeats March three more times, then does April backwards, and then skips to December. You find yourself knee-deep in a series of unconscious metaphorical realms, where you’re held captive under the sea. Currents are flowing in every direction at once, never going anywhere, distorting your sense of direction. The law of gravity ceases to exist. Perhaps it is no more than a passing flux, subsequently giving birth to a new set of rules? You can’t be sure. You’re aware that you become dust when you die but unaware that prior to that, a little bit of dust becomes you.

Inevitably, your waking life gets the better of you. Death stops you in your tracks. Your heart and lungs shut down. Before the oxygen escapes your body, causing the electrical activity in your brain to short circuit and cease, 12 minutes of brain activity is afloat, generating one second of dream consciousness, which is infinitely longer than a waking second. The possibility of eternal life is upon you.

F
amiliarity soon fuels contempt. A stop-clock moment of misappropriated lucidity is born. You’re poised, frozen and content, transfixed on the inanimately hypnotising image of a girl writing in her notebook. It’s an exquisitely boring scene, yet you cannot abandon it, nor are you satisfied by it. Time is standing still. Your unconscious state of departure is now a rehabilitation program for the terminally ambivalent. You lucked out; the power to control your waking rational abilities is no longer on the menu.

… But in retrospect, was it ever?
 

The quest to identify the “Most 80s Film of All Time” continues with “Gleaming the Cube,” also known as A Brother’s Justice and Skate or Die. It was directed by Graeme Clifford, who also directed, um, other stuff (probably). Christian Slater aka that pill-popping, Jack-Nicholson-mimicking nincompoop is in it; subsequently inspiring the hairstyle of the 90’s with his frosted blonde tips and spit-induced comb over that completely obscures the vision of one eye.

Gleaming the Cube
braces the laws of thermodynamics, accumulating a temperature colder than absolute zero (though scientists have kept that discovery quiet). This film resembles the vague, baggy clothes you once wore at 16, which are now collecting dust in your closet. You keep them there, marinating; only to revisit them subconsciously for a nostalgic inhale.

Gleaming the Cube may fuel an urge to stab a rusty knife into your neck post-viewing, or it may just provoke a more sinister act, like letting off some hormonal steam by hiring out “Airborne.” If you dig late 80s skateboarding, fluorescent threads and cheesy one-liners - I’d highly recommend watching it.


Soooo…





I don’t know if it’s the lingering effects of
sleep deprivation, the lousy weather, or the continual subjugated awareness that life is an empty series of gestures made upon the journey to the grave, but I am having a rough go of it today.

9.00am: Wake from a dream in which a faceless man tickles my arm, and then offers me a checkered sweater. Hot. I yawn artfully then make a vain attempt to free my left arm, which is trapped beneath several books. No success.

9.10am: Get out of bed feeling wonky-eyed and incoherent, like Spicoli from Fast Times at Ridgemont High,
the proper proportion of nostalgia and irony.

9.25am: Drink an instant coffee,
inadvertently consuming freeze-dried granules of horse poo.

11.00am: Sit through a 2-hour stab-a-fork-in-my-eye anthropology lecture. My brain is inundated with
nonsensical ramblings of undiluted panic and rage.

1.15pm: Overhear a girl call another girl a ‘stupid hoe’. Sophomoric insults, wow this is an advanced university.

1.30pm: Attempt to study, but instead youtube
various bands singing about their crackpot conspiracy theories, mirroring my collective self-involved insanity.

2.00pm: Boy in library playing Creed, unforgivingly loud. A light bulb moment is fueled: humanity is doomed; Earth will be cracked open, not by a comet but by Christian Rock. Steam will rise above the ocean and wind from every direction will catch fire. The sky will be covered with heavy tarps of black burning dust and every one of us will end up stenciled like letters into the fossil record. I mentally shake my fist at the boy and elbow him in the dick with my eyes.

2.20pm: University Professor dressed like Peter Brady enters the room. The fly of his plaid pants is unzipped. Students cannot help noticing; yet talk about everything else, carving out the unsaid.

2.30pm: Continue to revel in nihilistic thoughts.

Things we rarely mention or document




The powerful, morbid fascination with countless daily ritual nothings: False accretion of detail in the advertisements smeared across the city. Graffiti that perfectly frames each commute-contours, irregularities and shadows that were and weren’t there yesterday. The seconds wasted every week on the observation of people driving in their cars. The realisation that you’ve lost your marbles when misplacing inane objects, only later to come across them in the fridge or freezer. The insurmountable mental list of daily errands you construct in your head while sipping your morning cup of coffee. By 5pm the list is revisited – the boxes remain unchecked. 

Fantasies bred upon malicious intent: When moving though a crowd of people, I fantasise about shoving absolutely everyone to the ground with my shoulder: children, the elderly, men twice my size with shaven heads, women twice my size with shaven heads, flawless men in precarious shoes and suave suits, sleep-deprived students carrying books, policemen, Pauline Hanson, street preachers, drunks, D grade celebrities aka Sydney club whores, the old school friend I recognise but want to avoid, one of the hundreds of trendy hipsters with impeccable style in my neighborhood, who probably jack off to George Michael each night, the Indian man in 7/11 who looks down on me, like I am some kind of Delinquent, the girl who sort of looks like me, mothers who convert their prams into bulldozers, tailgating me on the footpath. I will shove them all. The crowd will subdue me, eventually; they will band together, pin me down and demand legitimate reasoning for such a vengeful act. I will politely reply that this was always how I pictured it. 

Bill Murray: In the context of film, I have always despised the term, “one of a kind”. I put it in the “ridiculous superlative” category, along with “best in the world”, and “very, very” anything.  And as soon as somebody uses the term more than once in reference to a film, or without a certain conviction, I lose interest.

So, this is my one and only time. I promise. Besides, I am not referencing a film. I am taking my hat off to one of the film industries finest. Bill Murray inadvertently seduces his audience with an effortlessly comedic approach to existence, with a spoonful of arrogance in interpretation that, while against the “rules”, is elucidating. He attracts us to the novelty of his subjects’ ”otherness”, before surprising, and engaging us with a reflection of ourselves. 

Bill-Murray-a-thons are a regular, habitual ritual in my world. It’s a bit of a love affair, really.

Living in an overpopulated world of emptiness: We’re conditioned on a mass scale and society is just a kaleidoscopic state of corporate slavery. Political agendas are there to control you in a buffet of dishonesty. We have been procreated from the moment we vacated from our mothers wombs to conform to a structured ideal of what humankind is considered to be. We’re all ants, insignificant ants, going through life on autopilot, extracting real human qualities. Stop, go, buy this, eat that. Actions that are purely designed for survival of ones self. We communicate to remain alive, in an efficient, polite manner. It is very rare to examine an extension of ones personality, without the miscellaneous assortment of social, religious, cultural and political typecasts overshadowing it. A girl walked passed me today. She was wearing a hat I admired. I wanted to tell her that I liked her hat. When I made eye contact with her, I received an unconscious, soulless, robotic glance back. 

 

Feb 4

Shit gets real during Sydney’s heat wave




It’s really hot outside. So hot you could fry an egg on the pavement. You’re practically naked wearing a maximum of 3 items of restricting, skin clenching clothing. You’ve decided to boycott layers today (these heady times are to be dealt with pragmatically). You’re sweating profusely. Instead of regulating the functionality of your lethargic pins, you hail down an already 7 minute late bus. You mentally justify the incompetence and unreliability of the Sydney state transit bus system with the refreshing reassurance that a spacious, air conditioned seat awaits you.

The bus arrives. You discover the air con is not working before you even step on to the bus from the exhausting visual of a crisp tomato-esque bus driver turning the wheel with a handkerchief wedged between his palm and the steering wheel. You sigh, but accept such inefficiency. After all it’s too hot to allow your emotions to escalate. Your electrolytes have been drained from your body. You’re weak and defeated. The seat is small and your leg is pressed up close against the man sitting next to you. Your right bum cheek is just touching the woman on the other side.  There are 53 hot, practically naked bodies sitting amongst you. You counted.



For a 22 year old who feels claustrophobic in Westfield shopping centre’s, the reality of exchanging sweat glands with a diverse range of strangers on a bus is overwhelming, to say the least. The idea of officialised nudity en masse is hard enough to grasp, but when a large group of half-naked twenty to sixty- something’s start unconsciously rubbing their bits and pieces up against others, it allows you to form disconcerting visuals in your head. Right now it is as though you’re sitting in a European sauna, where it is considered mandatory to strip down and violate each other’s limbs with scented liquid substances. Yes, an appropriate visual, just so you’re not misunderstanding the atmosphere. 



A shirtless guy standing at the front of the bus appears to be accommodating a strong current of sweat streaming down his back, like honey that melts like butter on hot skin. The pungent, heady smell is overpowering. You feel, um, a little strange. A bra-less 30-something pregnant lady just got on wearing a floral moo-moo. The moo-moo appears to be lacking in length. This observation does not go un-noticed to the folk on the bus as the pregnant lady’s decision to go commando today is most apparent. Alas, no raised eyebrows have been captured. It’s just how it is.



The whole bus is filled with bouncing stomachs and jiggling boobs and balls. Bodies are real, disproportionate, flawed. Suave perfection is nowhere to be found. The shirtless 20-something guy just took off his jeans and is now down to the bare minimum. Shit just got real. It’s a tad disheartening to discover Sydney’s most common mode of public transport has successfully achieved the ability to produce more revealing, liberal specimens than the exhibitionists who regularly choose to emulate the iconic Tony Abbott, prancing around in a pair of budgie smugglers down at your local pool. All you can do is go with the sweaty flow and make peace with your fellow commuters. I guess there is something special about partial-nudity that equalises people. Everyone is equally exposed. Like that dream we’ve all had, where we wake up, naked in a public place or something. It can be a humbling way of dealing with your demons… as they escape.

Without clothes – symbols of status and state - we could be anyone relaxing in a sauna, pool or even a bus. There are very few exhibitionists, and those who do strut are unlikely to have an Alfa Romeo to show off down there. When your city is facing a major heat wave, all you can do is relax and adapt to the liberal mentality of those around you. And really, this is what Sydney has begun to feel like: a remembrance that is fudged together by some entity ascending into the next consciousness. 

 

This uncomfortably extreme temperature is causing your hypothalamus (the thermo-regulation center of the brain) to malfunction. You’re starting to lose your mind. The clarity of the entire bus ride is disintegrating and what little sanity you have left is instantaneously replaced with a heat-induced, foggy realm of escapism, similar to a dream preceding a hangover. For a bleak moment of faded lucidity, you realise you went to Hell, or Hell came to you.

Essentially, this revelation isn’t too bad, more of an indefinite shift, like your coffee tasting like wine, your hair growing too fast, inert objects gleaming with raw and terrible life. In fact, it might just be you? You were always half-certain you’d lose your grip on things one day. Reality is what’s unraveling – one can’t ignore the perpetual ball scratching occurring next to them, wincing at the smoky scent of blatant chafing in a public space. One can’t escape the full frontal obscenity of middle-aged men and women publically exposing their not so aesthetically appealing beer guts. Bliss resides far from you at this point, while a dark cloud of contempt cultivates above your head. You bring home your despair as your bus stop approaches.



Anything is normal if you can convince yourself of it. Hell, just ask Tom Cruise: 

“What Scientology is, is it addresses man as a spiritual being. Okay? And it gives people tools that they apply to their lives to improve conditions. And that is what it is.” (Tom Cruise, 2007).

 

 

You had me at hello



What the dickens is up with this weather? It seems as though Mother Nature has been recently diagnosed with pestilent epilepsy, frothing up
perpetual storm clouds. Where art thou, Sun?

On dreary evenings like these I find myself curled up on the couch, simultaneously consuming
the lugubriously poetic, musical brilliance that is Billie Holliday and, well, artery clogging, current affair-targeted microwave dinners. This is generally followed by contemptuous late night exposure to Danoz Direct infomercials, as I exercise my brain cells in a disdainful manner with the pièce de résistance of 7-minute abs and food processors that prepare 65 diversely distinguished dishes, each within a 2-minute time frame. Boy, the times, they are a changin’.

Did I mention that I do this alone? Did I also mention that
Helen Fielding constructed the main protagonist in her acclaimed novel turned film from those who partake in such melancholic habitual activities? Reprehensible, I know.

Before I get all sex and the city on your ass, let me clarify that my current relationship status is obsolete out of personal choice. I have become accustomed to a distorted form of romantic atheism for reasons that remain warranted. Allow me to refresh your memory, so you can revisit those catch-22 predicaments, causing you confusing quantities of love, spite and vexation. You can thank me later.

1. The digital mind fuck:
Beyond the more typically failed task of trying to wring darkly emotional resonance from antic satire, lie’s a failure of imagination in the navel-gazing endemic to our text message nation.

You meet your significant other intoxicated in bar. Or possibly somewhere less traditional, like in your hood street fighting, illustrating your unique crumping technique and mortal combat powers, naturally. Whatever the establishment, you exchange numbers and leave their side feeling the giddy, optimistic and cheesy butterfly-induced emotions that enable you to become so high, you could pull a Tom Cruise  and jump up and down on Oprah Winfrey’s couch of declaration. And before you know it, bam! You both find yourselves strategically monitoring the appropriate duration between messages that is considered acceptable flirtatious behavior in order to formulate a reply, ensuring that you do not textually release a virtual tone that conveys, ‘I like you’. This generally persists for weeks, even months. Lennon and McCartney rendered it to the world in 1963, but it is unacceptable nowadays, given the strictures of gen Y connotations.
The bittersweet blend of pawky irony, trenchant insight and deeply humane characterisation immortalises the whole ‘I want to hold your hand’ concept of unambiguity. Let the games begin.

2. The
commercial viability of “Personality” and “Fuckability” requirements: Addressing a perceived shallowness of experience, technological addictions, destructive passion for eternal youth, personal branding, obsession with quantifiable popularity, viral sensibility, mass financial delusion and willful illiteracy.

I remember Jonathan Taylor Thomas in black and white. I always used to think it was my young memory romaticising a coming of age, but recently looking back I have realised how grayscale and melancholy it feels to declare your love for a poster boy of the 90’s, with a personality to boot. That’s not a terribly profound observation. Anyone who has upheld a childhood in the era of Jennifer Love Hewitt and Taylor Hanson knows what I mean. This is justifiable when your year 5 classmates are engaging in acts of nihilistic and bottomless evil aka performing wet willies and wedgies on you. Who else is deserving of your unrequited love? Jonathan Taylor Thomas, that’s who. He would never take part in such a devious craft, predominantly due to the risk of disrupting his perfectly defined comb over. We are procreated as mere beings to focus solely on aesthetically superficial credentials. I point a reluctant finger at the media, exploiting these near-perfect beings that acquire pungent heartthrob attributes.

Now - 22 and still as shallow as ever. I like to think I’m open-minded, but there is still a prerequisite check box in my head entailing insurmountable characteristics and compulsory futile appearance demands. For example, 90% of men I generally meet, fail to obtain basic grammatical requirements, thus lacking the brain chemistry that enables them to differentiate the literary correctness of “your” and “you’re”. C’mon guys, it is not that hard to comprehend that “
Your” is possessive and “Youre” is a contraction of “you are”. Secondly, it appears as though I have attained a Wyatt-Earp-moustache fetish, which is a serious problem as I am restricted to a limited time frame of 30 days in November when participating in seductive, flirtatious acts such as: Eye fucking and nipple twisting. You can comprehend my lack of optimistic motivation in concerns of finding ‘the one’. He remains merely a figment of my imagination, an impossible evolution of real life flesh and blood.

3. A love that
lacks warmth and complexity, also known as ‘settling’: The amorous involvement and the delicacy of attachment as depicted by good sex, convenient snuggle time and reassuring insecurity injections. It is an acquaintance spurred by a lonely atmosphere and hazardous endurance, a symptom of the ill empire. It is merely indistinguishable from the shit that clouds our daily efforts to live. Is it any wonder that we ultimately don’t care?

As discussed previously, ‘the one’ aka the compatible soul mate that has you at hello, completes you, is the Jude to your Johnny, yada yada yada, ceases to exist. In the mean time, we confide in those who are identified as space-fillers. A good fuck, somebody to cuddle with while this temperamental weather persists, somebody to tell you how hip and happening you are in a far out way, all to expand your head. Implications arise though, as expectations are to ultimately evolve into boyfriend/girlfriend status, or in other words ‘to go steady’. It is subsequently implied in a society that is force-feeding individuals
Jodi Picoult novels and heart wrenching rom coms. It is all very unnecessary and unsportsmanlike.

You could claim that I’m just projecting my own generational or writerly neuroses. You could argue that I’m a hypocrite, or that I’m pushing for a more escapist approach to reasoning, but the truth is that we live in a society where the economic and political tribulations are either turbocharged or Mad-Libbed versions of the catastrophes we sadly accept every day. A society that appears faint and irrelevant amid the candied lightning of all that 2010-on-steroids environmental stuff. Beyond the contours of this entanglement, it’s hard to determine whether the interrupted mating situation has any grand potential. In other words, why the fuck should we bother finding a counterpart while Orwell’s animal farm is imitating reality with
such prominent issues hovering over our heads. Man seeking woman? Or China’s rise to superpower status, climate change, the war in Afghanistan, the Arab-Israeli conflict, the fight against Islamic fundamentalism and the power of the internet? My theory is that we appear to be battling a poisoned haze of emotions, endlessly struggling to smooth each other’s deficiencies, paralleled by an erosion of the inevitable denial concerning the world’s slide into an acultural cesspool of insolvency and chaos.